In which the obvious is news to me
Jun. 25th, 2007 10:12 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lolaraincoatSo I'm writing not one but two bad guys for ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
hp_dungeons, a RPG/soap opera whose recent developments are best explained in cartoon form, over here and it disturbs me -- to put it mildly -- to find all that awfulness in my head and put it on the screen. I didn't know there was any part of me that was so ... so ... nasty, you know?
I mean, I've been voicing Charlie Weasley for a year now, and he's a really nice guy (and all the sweetest bits of Charlie's character come straight from observation of![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
fishwhistle so I can't even claim that Charlie's niceness makes up for my evil characters' meanness, because it's not mine) but this is -- different. I'm seriously unnerved.
Fanfic authors, has this ever happened to any of you? And if so, what did you do about it?
hp_dungeons, a RPG/soap opera whose recent developments are best explained in cartoon form, over here and it disturbs me -- to put it mildly -- to find all that awfulness in my head and put it on the screen. I didn't know there was any part of me that was so ... so ... nasty, you know? I mean, I've been voicing Charlie Weasley for a year now, and he's a really nice guy (and all the sweetest bits of Charlie's character come straight from observation of
fishwhistle so I can't even claim that Charlie's niceness makes up for my evil characters' meanness, because it's not mine) but this is -- different. I'm seriously unnerved.Fanfic authors, has this ever happened to any of you? And if so, what did you do about it?
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Date: 2007-06-25 03:26 pm (UTC)*shudders*
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Date: 2007-06-25 03:38 pm (UTC)I think we have to have some connection with our characters, however awful they are, or else they are insubstantial. At least, we do if we aren't geniuses. And evil is often something quite normal twisted just a little bit or missing a small but key element. At least, that's the evil I tend to think is more interesting to write and read about.
I actually have trouble writing aspects of S because he isn't a saint, and it's too easy to write him as some sort of Santa Claus figure. Which is sort of the opposite problem.
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Date: 2007-06-26 03:20 am (UTC)Somehow this is all connected in my mind with the Mary Sue issue but I can't quite figure out how.
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Date: 2007-06-25 04:04 pm (UTC)Think of it as a catharsis. Get all your worst urges out of your head and onto the screen. It's fiction. Some people write rape fic, chan fic, torture fic. Some people write horror stories. They're still nice, good, decent people! (As far as I know. Heh.)
Have fun with it. After all, villains are necessary to any good story. And everyone knows they get all the best dialog! :D
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Date: 2007-06-26 03:25 am (UTC)It's just ... when it's me ... when that part of me that's hateful gets out there where I have to look at it ... ewwwwwwww.
That's completely unreasonable and unfair and dumb too. But right now I'm just kind of stuck with the feeling of ick! ugh! yuck!, you know?